I read several blogs in what spare time I can find. I have been thinking recently about really "spilling my guts" about some of the things I've been struggling with in my life. Ironically enough, a couple of the people whose blogs I read brought up this very topic.
What do we NOT blog about?
If people knew what was really happening in our lives, what would they think?
What is left out?
Not that it matters to me (all that much) what people think...but I would be lying if I said it didn't matter at all. I should be more concerned
about what God thinks, shouldn't I?
Most of the time when I'm "preaching" about something, I am preaching to myself first. It seems that in my pea brain, I feel like if I am struggling with something then I have the "authority" to talk about what can be done to fix it.
Yeah, I'm NO expert on any subject except that of being at the top of the "Sinners" list. I try to get at least into the middle somewhere, but I fail every single time & manage to stay at the top.
I am trying ever so hard to work up the nerve to reach out to the blogger world and share some of these nagging troubles floating around in my head.
Today, I will simply ask for the prayers to find that strength and to begin facing some of my demons. It is something that is LONG overdue, and the more I put it off, the harder it becomes.
There is this very dark place where I often find myself...many times, I'm not sure how I ended up there, I just know that's where I am. I wander around here, wondering how I got here and how I'm going to get out...and it's typically a very long, very gradual process. I am not certain exactly how to articulate the emotions that flow while I'm stuck here, I just know I am low.
I "stole" this question from facebook yesterday....
What if you woke up today with ONLY what you thanked God for yesterday?
Did I leave anything out?
God bless you.
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