Just in case anyone had the wrong idea with the XX title...yes, it's the Roman Numeral 20.
Why am I still counting down the days??
Who knows.
The more I think about my plans that were SQUASHED, the more emotions I go through.
Do you ever get frustrated when people tell you things just to appease you, knowing full well that they never intend to go through with the promises they are making? Don't those count as outright lies? I've dealt with so much of that. What a crock it is.
I refuse to dwell on it
I know one thing:
God is on my side. His will shall be done regardless.
SO
What's significant about the number 20?
My BABY is going to turn 20 this year!
That makes me feel OLD. OLD. OLD.
I suppose we're only as old as we feel though, huh?
I think I'm going to take Maxine's approach
(Love Maxine)
New perspective!!
Ok, I will try really hard NOT to hurt myself, but I am planning to start running again. So in reality, this is not something "new" I'm trying, it's something I used to do, that I'll resume.
I've been chatting with my ex-husband a little, the one whom I could NEVER get to go run with me...and he boasts that he is now running and is up to a mile in less that 10 minutes. My competetive nature tells me that I need to hit that goal within the next 3 weeks because I'm going to be seeing him and would love to beat him in a foot race lol.
NOT going to happen, but it's a goal.
I hike, I walk, I do workout videos at home, but I just have not gotten back into running. It was something I LOVED to do, although hard on my joints (ya know, the ones that are getting OLD) but if he can do it, then SO CAN I !!
Next stop: New running shoes.
I'll give it a shot and see what happens.
I'm losing hope a bit and I'm hoping that the endorphins will help. I've slacked off on my working out and hiking. I've slacked off in my relationship with God. I believe my priorities have been a bit jacked in the last 6-8 months.
I am determined to get back on track.
Praying hard for God's guidance. I am aware that He never left me, but I regret admitting that I may have turned my back on Him for awhile.
He will never leave me nor forsake me.
:)
Blessings to you.
I wish there were something I could do or say to ease the pain you are feeling. I have said a prayer and asked that you will be made stronger when the pain has eased. God bless.
ReplyDeleteAnd BTW---I was thinking about your comment on my blog the other day---you have been thru a divorce, moved across country and now have your mom living with you. That is more than a large platter of stressful change! It's gonna take a little time to begin to stabilize and decompress. Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteThanks Clint. I appreciate the prayers. I've kept you and yours in my prayers as well. God will see me through it. He ALWAYS comes through even when people don't!!
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