24 Days

Yes, the countdown is on. I've got 24 days left. Originally, my countdown was for a trip...a wonderful, creative girl's dream trip. Well, that may be a teensy bit extreme, but for the shutter bug type, it would have been a stellar time. Is it obvious that THIS shutter bug will NOT be making that trip? Yes, I cancelled it.
Why?
What a GREAT question! Can we say, "regret?" What reason could I possibly have had to skip out on such a beautiful & promising adventure? I continually ask myself that EXACT question. Putting faith in men & his plans will get ya every time, huh?

If there is any question...the answer is "yes" I DID have an alternate plan. One that I was more excited about than I have ever been about anything in my life! In fact, I KNOW I was looking forward to this more intensely than I've ever anticipated anything. Hello?? First clue that it may not be such a great plan? Too good to be true?Yeah. Duh.

Have you ever been like a kid on Christmas Eve, palms sweating, feet tapping, whistling, can't close your eyes because you can hardly wait?!?!? Just singing in the shower, dancing like a fool, smiling for no apparent reason, downright goofy thrilled about something?  
Well...now suppose that this something was like a castle....only it was built with cards inside of a wind-proof room. A spectacular sight, this castle! You were  very skeptical at first, but someone you trusted assured you that it would be the most amazing accomplishment imaginable. After hesitant consideration, you brought out ALL your cards (great & even not so great ones) and used every last one of them to construct this incredible 'building'....now just as you complete your project, you're holding your breath and placing the very last card you have right on top- - -WHOOOOOSHHH!!!!!!!!!!
Your room disintegrates as the winds scatter and destroy this 'dream house' you had worked on and waited for all this time. For a moment, you're confused and spinning wildly trying to get a grasp on the situation. You sigh. You realize what's happened. As you begin looking around, you see a card here & there, but you know it's going to be a very long time before you can actually gather them all back up, and you'd be a NUTCASE to ever again put all you've got into something that really had no foundation in the first place. Come on!! Aren't cards for gambling? Yeah, not building dreams! DUH!
Ok, ok...I'm picking up my cards. :) As described, it may seem as though I'm upset about this in some way, but really I'm okay. (LIE!!) Yes, of course I'm upset. Crushed actually. Major blonde moment? Like, "I've got some ocean front property in Arizona...". "Here's your sign." Yeah.
BUT!  I'm a survivor & I like a challenge!! Always good to have my eyes OPEN while I find my cards, huh? Haha!!

So....plan "C"!!! Road Trip!!!

I'll try to muster some excitement for this adventure. I will find a way to be a shutter bug along the way. I will see people I love & have missed. I will be reunited with Maximus Decimus Arelius the gladiator dog!!

All I need for this trip is prayers. I need God's blessing & I will be A-OK! What more do you really need? They say you should let go of what/whom you love right? If it's yours, it'll find it's way to you & if not....it was never really yours anyway. I believe that God has a plan for me & that He will make sure it happens how He wants it to.
I'm just gonna countdown & go along for the ride.....& looky here...the 24 has become 23!
Pray for me please & thanks!!

For God SO loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life...
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