God's Wisdom

It just never ceases to amaze me how God works in my life. There are times when I feel I've had all that I can possibly handle and I'm about as low as I can possibly be....and that's when God sends me 'helpers'.

In all of the searches and studies that I've been involved with over the years, it seems that the Holy Spirit is our 'Helper' and will come to us in a variety of ways, some we may never even be aware of.

I have been so low in the past month or so.

I've been struggling so much with many things in many ways...mainly spiritually. The divorce has really been the kicker because it's something I said I would never do, no matter what. I feel like I've got no choice. I could list the many reasons for this decision, and I could 'bash' him for all the things he's done to contribute to the demise of this union, but I'm not into bashing anyone except myself! Rather than focus on the negative...

In just the past week I have: 

** Had 3 total strangers offer for me to follow their blogs, all of which are (seemingly according to their respective blogs) die-hard followers of Christ and they share their (God's) wisdom in their writings.

** Had my very best friend, who I was 'astranged' from for the past 4 years due to neglect of our friendship (mostly on my part) grant me forgiveness and we have re-connected, which brings me great joy!!

** Received numerous, stellar compliments from several different individuals in my personal and professional life. 

** Started to feel like I may actually be worth something after all.

Great breakthroughs! I ride this emotional rollercoaster continuously and the nadir was probably the lowest it's ever been this time. When I get into these nadirs, I know that I have to look to God and Him alone, but sometimes I don't tend to do that. I just keep sinking. I know in my soul that God sent me these little helpers to give me the little nudge I desperately needed to pull me back up. I am absolutely undeserving of His great love, but He showers me with it again and again anyway.

I thank all who pray for me.

I thank all who complimented me.

I thank all who are sharing your wisdom with me.

I know God led all of you to me.

Most of all, I thank God for loving me enough to not only send Jesus to die for me, but to continuously watch over me until I meet Him in the sky.

"Thank You Lord for Loving Me!"