Memories

So, I was looking through some old photos at my Nana's house and came across some wonderfully funny shots of myself, Kory, Randy, my Mom, Dad, Nana & cousins. I shared them on facebook. The response just makes me chuckle. I can't spy a pic, newer or older, of my Dad without shedding at least one little tear. :( I miss him so much. He was such a zealous man with regard to his beliefs. I only wish that I could make as heavy an impression on others as my Dad did. I know that I DO make an impression...but people actually loved Dad. I'm pretty sure that is NOT what they're thinking when they leave my presence.



I know that if I was making the impact God expects me to, then life would be quite different for me. God has/had His reasons for giving each of us the gift of Christ and I should be grateful enough to behave appropriately, but do I? Am I checking myself daily? Moment by moment? I need to be CERTAIN that I need not be frightened if Christ chooses today...or NOW to return! I need my confidence in the Lord to return to me like a flood! I fall so short of who I ought to be that I frequently tell myself how UNworthy I am of Christ's love, then I find myself caught up in the snare of comparing myself to others, "Well, no one really is worthy," and "If that person (whomever it may be) is safe, then surely I am too." and such. But who is it that I need to compare myself to? It is Christ and no one else. I do not....MUST not compare myself to any human, for we are ALL in need of His gift & should behave in a manner that tells EVERYONE about it! People should know without a doubt that when they meet me, I belong to the Lord and am proud of it! If I knew that someone was writing my eulogy....would I act differently?

All of that came out of the fact that I miss my Dad & no one ever had to wonder where he was coming from, you knew without a doubt that he loved Jesus and intended to live his life to prove that.